[ Jason's not there yet. not at that part of it anyway. what he needs the most is patience, because opening himself up has always been the most dangerous thing. Max should get that more than anyone, but he's had many more years to contend with it than Jason has. that, and Jason's only ever had himself.
he can hear and feel the relief Max has after everything he says, and Jason hopes that it really will be ok. he hopes that when it comes time for being soft, for making love in a gentle, loving kind of way, Max will be ok with that too. Jason knows he deserves pain, but he's so far from believing he deserves any tenderness or love. he still craves it, though. ]
Ok. Good, that's... that's what I want. Our own thing.
[he looks up at Max again, just holding his gaze for a moment before he nods. he doesn't know how to do this the way Max does, but he'll try. his gaze travels down Max's body after that, but he already knows where he wants to mark his lover. the same spot Max thought might be too soon. the spot right over his heart. he runs his fingers over that spot as he leans in to kiss Max deeply, moving his leg up to drape over the other man's waist.
he drags out the deep, exploring kiss for as long as he can before he starts to move those kisses down Max's jaw, his neck, finally along his chest to right over his heart. he doesn't do it right away though, because that isn't him. he has to ask first. it's important for him to ask. ]
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he can hear and feel the relief Max has after everything he says, and Jason hopes that it really will be ok. he hopes that when it comes time for being soft, for making love in a gentle, loving kind of way, Max will be ok with that too. Jason knows he deserves pain, but he's so far from believing he deserves any tenderness or love. he still craves it, though. ]
Ok. Good, that's... that's what I want. Our own thing.
[he looks up at Max again, just holding his gaze for a moment before he nods. he doesn't know how to do this the way Max does, but he'll try. his gaze travels down Max's body after that, but he already knows where he wants to mark his lover. the same spot Max thought might be too soon. the spot right over his heart. he runs his fingers over that spot as he leans in to kiss Max deeply, moving his leg up to drape over the other man's waist.
he drags out the deep, exploring kiss for as long as he can before he starts to move those kisses down Max's jaw, his neck, finally along his chest to right over his heart. he doesn't do it right away though, because that isn't him. he has to ask first. it's important for him to ask. ]
Over your heart, like where you marked me. Can I?