[Holding most of his body off to the side, it takes everything he has not to collapse on Jason. Max grabs a sweatshirt laying on the side of the couch and uses it to wipe off his hand and around the edges of Jason's thighs, because Max doesn't want to lose this feeling yet. In fact, he takes a deep breath and with a little help from his powers he uses them to help hold Jason up as he rolls him up in his lap and lifts them both to a standing position.]
Arms and legs around me.
[It might make sense to go to the shower, but Max wants to stay tied together. He doesn't want to let go yet, and so using that tiny bit of alien help he takes them both to the bed and moves carefully only slipping partially out as he climbs in. He pushes himself back in as soft as he is, and stays there. He knows it will feel cold and raw before too long, but for now...
Small kisses are dotted everywhere Max hurt Jason. He kisses every wound with great tenderness now, especially the angry one he left as he came. He licks at the blood that dripped down Jason's shoulder. They could treat the wounds with a little bit of antibacterial cream later. Just because aliens never got sick, didn't mean humans didn't. His lips find Jason's and he offers one of the most sensual, soft kisses between them yet-- offering up every ounce of emotion they shared but on the most gentle level he knows.]
You are the most beautiful person I've ever been with. [Max combs through Jason's hair and smiles down on him, barely holding himself up on an elbow, muscles still weak from exertion.]
[ Jason is so blissed out, clinging onto Max that he barely realized what's going on around him. it's only when Max starts moving that he really comes back to himself again, shifting into his lap, then wrapping his arms and legs around him when Max stands up. it's hard, cause his limbs feel like jelly, but he doesn't want to let go.
it's fucking nice when they finally end up in Max's bedroom, in his bed, and Max pushes back into him all the way, forcing a deep moan from Jason once again. he's so sensitive all around, but it feels good. he doesn't want to separate yet either.
all the pleasure is outweighing the pain, so he doesn't feel any of the soreness just yet, but the kisses are so good, so sweet, and he relishes each and every one of them. the kiss to his lips is more intense though, and he returns it in kind, pushing his fingers into Max's hair, his legs managing to slid up tight around his body. ]
[From this angle it's easy to tie himself up in Jason and that's exactly what Max does, arms and legs wind through and around the younger man. Max's body starts winding down from the intense rush of adrenaline that took him through that entire experience. What a wild ride. If he could move he'd take a shot of acetone about now to replenish his cells, but he's not moving from Jason's body or how completely whole he feels for once in his life.
Maybe he felt like this a couple times with Liz in the very beginning, but it had never been this real, this intense. It's an entirely different story, written with different paper and ink and Max wouldn't trade it for all the paperbacks in the world.
He sighs in contentment with Jason wrapped around him and Max's hands smooth down his body gently.] I think so. You can stay tonight? Say you'll stay with me tonight. I don't want to let you out of my arms, my precious love.
[the word love is tacked out without even a thought. It's true. If ever max were to think of it, or worry about it. If ever he were to hold it out in front of a mirror, when Max decides to give his heart be it over a night of loving, or over a shared sandbox, he does it instantly and never takes it back. He may not admit it in the daylight, but for tonight.]
[ tangled up in each other after something so intensely intimate feels so good. it feels so complete. all of it was so intense, and now Jason gets to revel in this softness, curling up into Max's arms. he's lost in them, really, letting out soft hums of satisfaction as he kisses along every last inch of skin he can reach while he's coming down from pure bliss. ]
I can stay tonight, yeah. I wanna stay with you.
[my precious love, Max says, and it lights Jason's insides on fire. no one loves him, and he knows it's just the afterglow, but he doesn't want to make sense of it right now. he just wants to be here in these words, in this moment. he wants to be Max's precious love.]
I don't ever, ever want to let you go. Stay with me forever.
[Those kisses are like the sweetest lullaby, a balm to the wounded soul of a warrior who has been at it so long that he's forgotten what it truly feels like to have someone bound up in the afterglow of everything he can do to them, for them. His own kisses return favor, and languidly deliver hazy promises as they move over damp bare skin.
Max moves to pull the covers up, considering they're both cooling from the exertion of earlier and he doesn't want Jason to get cold.
They'll toss them off later as body heat warms them again and letting go of one another isn't an option in the middle of the night, when they lay loving again after waking.
Except when they do it again, the words will be whispered softly, and everything will be slow and gentle. Max will still want and need Jason every bit as much, and he won't give in, give up, but as one or the other falls asleep, he might very might whisper his own quiet promise of i love you against the lazy curl of Jason's ear, praying he doesn't hear it, because he knows he'll never be able to admit it to himself come light of day. ]
[ and he really, truly does. he wishes he could, with every fiber of his being, but there's so much more to it than that. he doesn't think of any of that right now though, he just stays lost in this, in Max.
he curls up under the blanket, but mostly under Max, his arms sill sliding up and down his back as he holds him.
they definitely do it again, and maybe once more after that, and each time feels like the most incredible thing. he doesn't hear those words when they're whispered against his ear once he's asleep, but he can feel them, even when morning comes and he has to go. ]
[Having slept the sleep of the dead, Max slowly begins to orient himself feeling soreness in places he'd forgotten existed. It was wonderful, and then he realized that his fingers were numb from where Jason was laying over his arm, and he shifted some and smiled over at the beautiful man that he'd made his last night.
It felt like a dream. Clearly it had been a dream. There was no way that this angel had found its way into his life, into his bed and turned his life around completely as Jason had done. Could Max even put into words all the things that last night had meant to him? It wasn't only the sex, it was the trust inherent in Jason's eyes and the way he knew that they were no longer two people, but two souls slowly tying themselves into one.
It made his heart clench with love and fear all in the same breath. Tears formed at the corner of his eyes. Could Max go through this again? Not only that, but could he let Jason leave and go back to where he came from? They had so much to learn about one another and Jason was so young, there was so much that he couldn't understand about all that Max was and had gone through to be where he was. Max began to worry, even before Jason woke.
But then he reached over and touched a cheek blushed from sleep, and knew that he couldn't let any of this go. All the words he'd spoken last night were so very true. He never would let him go. Already in his heart. It would be a struggle. Dear god. He was amazing, and Max felt his body tight and ready as it woke many mornings. Liz would always laugh and walk away. He leaned in close and nuzzled against Jason's neck. He smelled so good.]
[ Jason's usually a terrible sleeper, but he also slept like the dead, only stirring slightly at the feel of something brushing over his cheek. he feels warm and safe... and very much not alone. fuck, this is what it feels like not to be alone?
he wakes completely as Max nuzzles into his neck, letting out a soft, sleepy sound as he opens his eyes, turning his head to nuzzle into Max's hair. fuck, he's sore all over, but he feels so good. ]
[No Jason, you're not alone. Max is very much here and once he realizes that Jason's awake, he's stirring enough to start kissing over and along various parts of the younger male's naked anatomy-- after he stole his arm back that is.]
Good morning, my beautiful precious. I take it you slept well?
[He's not particularly super awake, so the kisses are slow and drag over neck and chest as he moves, stretching Jason onto his back.] Thank you for an amazing night. You are wonderful ...
[words are pressed into the skin, written in lazy drawings of Max's tongue around nipple and then navel as he shuffles the covers off. It's obvious he's got something on his mind and won't be stopped. Settling alongside Jason's leg, Max licks over Jason's dick, be it awake or asleep. He pulls the whole thing in his mouth if it's still tiny, or covers the head in kisses if it's awake and proud. ]
[ Jason feels a shiver running across his skin when Max kisses him all over, from the tips of his fingers all the way down, he feels alive. it wasn't a dream, not something he's waking up from now. opening his eyes to this, to Max, he realizes it's better than any dream could ever be. ]
I slept so fucking well. I could feel your arms around me all night.
[his voice is still sleepy, but happy- so happy. he's all smiles as he lays out on his back, his fingers finding Max's skin and slowly smoothing them over his body, wherever he can reach. it's amazing how with a few words, Max can make him feel like he's worth something good. something better than he's ever been worth.]
It was perfect. Everything about last night was perfect. You're incredible.
[Jason says softly as Max moves down his body with his beautiful mouth. god, he loves this softness. it's the perfect way to wake up. his fingers slide up into Max's hair the further down he moves, and oh, hid dick is definitely awake, fully, by the time Max is finishes dragging his tongue up his length. Jason's body arches off the bed just slightly, letting out a soft moan.]
Fuck... your mouth. Your beautiful mouth. Feels so good on me, Max.
This is the way you should wake every morning, love.
[It doesn't even bother him that he's carried his language over into the morning. It feels right and curled up warm next to Jason's leg, Max lets all of his worries escape as the musk of last night fills in around him. The smell of their sex reminds him of how it felt to be wrapped up tight in Jason's body, his muscles clinging to Max as they told even the heavens how love was made.
This morning is no difference in its laziness. Max's tongue gently sweeps up and down the length of Jason's dick, swabbing it with saliva, coating the head in lazy open mouthed kisses before he covers the whole thing by taking it into the forward part of his mouth. Even there his tongue plays over the head as he sucks. It runs sideways through the little slit, always anxious for the taste of Jason. That salty bitterness that exclaims his awareness and attraction, his desire for what Max is doing to him.
Pulling off Max takes only a second to sip at some water before he's back, and this time he doesn't hesitate to open up his throat and show Jason all the skills he's learned. He pulls the whole of Jason's cock into his mouth, and then swallows and takes him back into this throat, working him down until Max's lips kiss Jason's body. He pulls back with his lips and tongue curled around the shaft, and navigates his way back down again.
Only once do his eyes ever leave Jason's face when he goes down, only that first swallow. Now that he's got his rhythm, he keeps his eyes on the man he cares about so intently, watching him, enjoying every single bit of his pleasure. He cups Jason's balls, and plays with them gently as he continues, slipping a finger back every now and then to brush along his taint, teasing his lover with as many little sensations as he can this early.]
[god, if he could wake this way every morning, he's pretty sure life would be perfect. the mention of love doesn't get lost on him either. he can feel it move through him, warming up his insides, cracking more of that armor he's worked so hard to put up. love. it's just a pet name, he figures. but god it feels good to hear Max say it.
that warmth only deepens when Max keeps at it with that talented mouth of his. it's all so slow and languid, pulling him into this deep, hazy feeling of arousal. he can't take his eyes off of Max. even when the other man pulls off, Jason's eyes follow him, until his head has to fall back from the incredible feeling of Max taking him so deep into his mouth. he lets out a broken moan, fingers curling tight into his hair. he'd be worried that he's pulling too hard, but he remembers how Max said he likes the pain. after last night and all the biting marks Max left, he understands why.]
Oh god... oh fuck, that's...
[his words get cut off by another moan, and then he's back to looking at Max again, wanting to see how it looks with his dick disappearing so deep in Max's mouth. it's fucking beautiful. he's gonna lose his mind with how good this feels.]
[There are answers that lie just beyond the tip of Max's tongue that end up as tattered moans scattered around the head of Jason's cock as it breaches the back of the alien's throat once more. There's so much power delivered in the knowledge that he is the singular person with the absolute ability to make Jason moan like this. Max is the only one who has ever cradled this younger man in the morning light with his full cock buried in the back of his throat, with the simple purpose of making his precious feel ecstasy.
To that end, Max lifts his head up, and slides a finger in his mouth before he rolls his head back over the throbbing erection in front of him. He can feel the way it jerks as Jason's hips surge towards him and he loves it. Even if Jason were to force himself into Max's throat the man would take every single ounce of abuse so that the younger male found his pleasure.
A slicked digit moves beyond it all, and curves through tightened and sore muscles to press inside Jason. Oh what a feeling to be inside Jason again. They spent the night loving, and even with only a finger it all comes back to him in magnified color relief. He tips his finger towards the spot he's found on more than one occasion and rubs against it. Tapping and moving in and out as his mouth services Jason's cock dutifully.
Max's eyes dare the other, they implore him to find that final end of himself. He watches as every single ounce of beautiful sensation crosses those features, the grimaces and the gasps, the moans and whimpers. Max is in awe of everything he can do as he waits for Jason to orgasm for him. This is the only breakfast he needs and wants this morning. ]
[ Max's power over Jason is insurmountable right now. Jason's pretty sure he'd do anything for him and with him. he'd do anything to keep Max's mouth on him, sucking him down the way he is. every time the head of his cock hits the back of Max's throat, Jason moans lowly and his fingers tighten in the other man's hair. it's such a good, perfect pace. Jason feels like he's coming undone all over again. ]
Oh god, oh fuck.
[Jason breathes out over and over again, his head swimming with pleasure. Jason thought maybe he'd feel too sore to have Max press into him again, but as that finger pushes into him, he already finds himself craving more. his body pulls the finger in like it's meant to be there, his entire body shivering again when Max hits that spot. he cries out, seeing stars, and he barely has enough time to give a warning.]
Max, I'm gonna cum. Max!
[he breathes out, and then he's spilling into Max's mouth, hips thrusting forward before he can even stop himself.]
[That amount of power might frighten the man if he understood he held the reigns to it within his power. He was already the savior of a people he didn't know. One more strand, the fragile ego of a young male and his tender soul placed upon this alter might just drown him-- but once again, right now all Max knows is this world they've created, this insulated bubble of theirs in which no one can breech right now if they wanted to.
No one can take Jason away from Max, and there's nothing that would shake this singular force or the tie of his will. The hold his throat has it contracts around the thickness of Jason's dick only increases with each practiced dip of the alien's head. Every deepening thrust of his fingers have Max beginning to moan himself, vibrating around that cock so well placed in his mouth.
Even before Jason warns him, Max knows. He knows from the trembling breath, from the break in Jason's moan and the way his hips begin to thrust erratically at Max's mouth. The alien dives down and then pulls back, sucking hard as ejaculate spills hot and warm down the back of his throat. The warm, thick white substance coats his mouth and he swallows several times working to take every single drop. Only a tiny bit escapes on the corner of his lip, which he lifts his head so that Jason can see him lick it up with his tongue.
Without pausing, Max lowers his head again and licks up every little drop until his lover is clean. Only then does he climb up the young male's body, kissing and sucking over every single mark, reclaiming Jason as his. ] Fuck. You are the sexiest man alive, and I have you all to myself. How can I not be the luckiest man in all the world. In every single planet in this and every galaxy.
[He adds the last, thinking that he's even luckier than any alien that ever walked anywhere as well. Now he cradles Jason to him, and laps his way into the other man's mouth, sharing every deep and dark flavor he just experienced.]
[ Max does have a lot of power and Jason is willingly giving it to him with his heart and his soul. it is a lot, but Jason is so willing to give his all. maybe it's all a bubble, but it feels like so much more than that. Jason knows that he wants this with Max, even once he leaves.
the way Max swallows him down only adds to how incredibly mind blowing his orgasm feels. he always thought people were making shit up when they said they saw stars, but he feels like he sees an entire universe of them, blurring his vision as he comes, and he can't stop saying Max's name.
when he starts coming down from it he gets to watch Max lick cum from his lips, from his cock, cleaning him up like the best kind of lover. and god, he's thrilled when Max moves back up his body to lean in for a kiss, because Jason closes that gap quickly to press up into it, his tongue searching out his taste mixed with his lovers. ]
Fuck, I'm the lucky one. I'm so lucky...
[he slides his hands up and down Max's back, his words coming out all breathless and blissful.]
You make me feel better than anything and anyone in the world.
[Riding the high of making the one he cared for so incredibly deeply feel such intensity, Max can only smile and even chuckles softly as he pulls back from their kiss, keeping himself impossibly close. The alien ties his body back up with Jason's, threading their legs together and pulling their bodies together.]
That's the high of the blow job talking, but it sounds wonderful.
[It's very obvious by his grin that he's teasing, and if that wasn't enough Max tilts his head to nip at Jason's nose with affection, bringing it down to a soft, tender kiss]
I meant it when I said that you should wake that way every single morning. You deserve to be loved like this all the time, no matter where you are or who you're with.
[obviously the who is with Max, but he's trying not to narrow the world in one giant leap overnight if that's not what Jason wants, even if it seems like it.]
[Jason adores all the loving affection Max showers him with both physically and emotionally. even more than that, he's so fucking thankful that he's getting it from a person he clearly has sudden and overwhelming feelings for.
they barely know each other. it's isane. mostly because Jason feels like he's already known Max for years. like they've shared so much more than they have.]
Could be the blowjob... it was fucking unbelievable.
[Jason leans into the kiss, tangling their legs up even more before he ducks his head a little at the sweet words. ]
I want to. I wish I could, with you.
[whatever he deserves, because he certainly doesn't believe it's this. somehow he has it anyway, though. Max says love like it's a real, actual thing, and Jason wonders if he really feels it. it's a lot. ]
[Max laughs a little, and hums kissing over Jason's neck and chest randomly, fingering along the marks he made, rediscovering the body he made love to last night in the calm of the morning light.]
My first time giving a blowjob, or with a guy at all was in a lighthouse in the middle of a storm. We were stuck. He was one of my closest friends at the time. There was something in the air... [max shrugged, because it was never easy to explain getting shipped off to another world, and he didn't like to bring it up-- ever.]
I... I bottomed. I always bottomed with him. He was dating this guy that insisted that the only person he ever was on the bottom for was him. I guess that makes sense. The sex was more intense than it ever was with my girlfriend. I had no idea that it could be like that... [His words turn soft and somewhat faraway as he remembers. There's pain in his voice, but also a soft nostalgia. It's obvious he cared for Kyle, but also very obvious that whatever happened hurt him]
I thought I had him for good. He promised me. He was rough, and bit me and showed me what it was like to have someone be possessive, and need me. He did things ... amazing things. Showed me the kind of sex I loved. The kind that I needed, not always, but I needed it to make me feel wanted and loved. Maybe I'm broken that way.
[Max holds jason a little tighter, and leans down to kiss him softly being overly tender to make up for the roughness that he needs at times. ]
You... you've brought me more joy last night than he ever did in the whole time we were together, and I barely know you. We should probably start with the simple things, right? [Max sighs, and kisses Jason again, because he's already so damn addicted it's impossible to do anything else.]
[he smiles, all blissed out, his fingers doing their own roam across Max's skin. last night was intense and this morning has been slow and calm in the best kind of way. he loves that it can be both. he's always been the soft, romantic type though. all this roughness with Max is new.
as his fingers trace patterns across Max's skin, he listens. it's a little hard to hear him talk about being with other people, but he wants to know. he's grateful that Max wants to share with him and he gets to see into the older man's world. love, heartache, things that have shaped him in different kinds of ways. Jason has never been open to talking about those things, but maybe since Max can do it, it'll help Jason at least try.]
It sounds like... like all the people you've been with were kind of always with someone else. Or attached to something else. I don't think you're broken, though. Not for liking those things. I think we all just like what we like. Or we like what the person we care about the most likes. It's what he taught you. It's what you know. Maybe... maybe I can teach you other things too.
[it'll likely be the other way around though. it already is. Jason's soft and Max is rough, and yet Jason would take a hundred more bites and marks from Max if it meant the other man could be his. he gets it and he wants it now too.]
I've always hated the idea of possession. I'm the only person I've got. The only person who I can really count on and trust. People've tried to fuck me up before, you know? When you're a street kid, people expect that shit from you sometimes. But... it's different with you. I like it with you. I want it.
[he kisses Max soft and slow, relishing in the tenderness, but after saying all these things out loud- more than he's ever really talked about with anyone- he has to duck his head down against Max's chest.]
[How does he explain it. Max knows how to be soft and sweet. That's what he was for so much of his life. He was born romantic, vanilla and fully of syrupy goodness. The alien excels at forehead kisses, and being wrapped up in blankets around a fireplace at night with a good glass of wine. He is amazing at watching the stars and sharing every moment of his bleeding heart. What Jason is? Max has been his whole life. That's what he was with Liz, the woman he grew with, loved and lived with.
She wasn't what made him alive though. She pushed him through hardships, and they fought-- but she didn't make him want to die burning up in an inferno wrapped only in her. Kyle did, and by the gods, Jason did..
Max needed the mix of rough and soft. He needed someone to challenge him, and let him be romantic with. Someone to bite and hold. Yet, he didn't want to take advantage of Jason who had never felt these things before. He didn't want to be the one who brought possession like this into his life. Maybe he wanted it only because he wanted to be with Max.
The alien sighed a little, and nuzzled against Jason's hair.] Yeah, it's something like that. not exactly, but maybe ... Hey Jason, you know that i'd still like you even if you didn't like the idea of me being possessive of you. If you never wanted me to call you mine, or if you wanted to be your own person it's okay. I don't have to be that way to like you. You're perfect the way you are.
[It hurt a little to say that, but Max would give up a lot for Jason. He'd go back in time, and take away so much of what had happened between them as long as he could hold the younger man here with him if he needed to.]
[he starts, but then stops himself. god, he feels so raw with Max. all open and honest with his feelings and emotions. but along with the good ones are the bad. they're every terrible way he feels about himself. Max's words have done a lot to silence those thoughts, but it's different when Max tells him how he feels, opposed to what Jason is.
he doesn't want to talk about himself.]
I wanna be yours. I can still be my own person and be yours. I wanna see your marks on me and know that you're thinking of 'em as much as I am.
[he lifts a hand, running it along the bite Max left above his heart. it's sore, but it's good. they probably all need to be cleaned up soon because they're pretty intense, but Jason isn't really thinking about any of that right now.]
It never felt bad or wrong, or like something I didn't like. Not even for a second. It's just different and new from anything I ever thought I'd like. That's all I'm trying to say.
[he hesitates, letting his hand fall against Max's chest this time, fingers sliding over his heart.]
But also... the guy you were with. He was rough with you and he was possessive of you. He promised you that you had him for good... and then he left. So maybe that's not everything. You said I've brought you more joy than he ever did, even in the short time we've been together. I don't know how, but that feels real important, and maybe we can just have our own thing.
[Being raw and open is a big part of being in a relationship like this. One doesn't merely become part of another person without allowing that person to know them inside and out, to love them flaws and all. That's the key to love. Max knows this because he's been through it, and he wants to do this with Jason-- he feels like there's the opportunity, because Max is open.
He has no idea exactly how locked up and closed Jason actually is to some parts of himself. The harder parts are every bit as important, maybe even more so because in the end those are the ones that Jason will have to know Max loves about him the most. The fucked-up parts. Max has those too, and he's going to dig deep to share them as well.
Time though, it doesn't all have to be on that very first morning.
Right now, what max is doing is trying to let Jason know that what they are doing is different from what Kyle and he did already.
The alien smiles when Jason says that he wants all of this. It's a relief, and without thinking, max blows out a breath he had been holding. ]
I want this with you. I told you all this because you are different. I wanted you to know that already we are different, and what you and I have isn't the same. That's why I told you the story. We do have our own thing.
[Wide eyes blink at Jason, and Max brings his hand to hold Jason's over his heart. He pauses for a second and then speaks softly, but with a quiet determination. ]
Mark me. Mark me as yours, precious. I want a mark of my own to remember you by. Make it deep and put it wherever you want. I'm every bit yours as you are mine. Mark me, please...
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Date: 2023-03-12 03:00 am (UTC)Arms and legs around me.
[It might make sense to go to the shower, but Max wants to stay tied together. He doesn't want to let go yet, and so using that tiny bit of alien help he takes them both to the bed and moves carefully only slipping partially out as he climbs in. He pushes himself back in as soft as he is, and stays there. He knows it will feel cold and raw before too long, but for now...
Small kisses are dotted everywhere Max hurt Jason. He kisses every wound with great tenderness now, especially the angry one he left as he came. He licks at the blood that dripped down Jason's shoulder. They could treat the wounds with a little bit of antibacterial cream later. Just because aliens never got sick, didn't mean humans didn't. His lips find Jason's and he offers one of the most sensual, soft kisses between them yet-- offering up every ounce of emotion they shared but on the most gentle level he knows.]
You are the most beautiful person I've ever been with. [Max combs through Jason's hair and smiles down on him, barely holding himself up on an elbow, muscles still weak from exertion.]
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Date: 2023-03-12 03:31 am (UTC)it's fucking nice when they finally end up in Max's bedroom, in his bed, and Max pushes back into him all the way, forcing a deep moan from Jason once again. he's so sensitive all around, but it feels good. he doesn't want to separate yet either.
all the pleasure is outweighing the pain, so he doesn't feel any of the soreness just yet, but the kisses are so good, so sweet, and he relishes each and every one of them. the kiss to his lips is more intense though, and he returns it in kind, pushing his fingers into Max's hair, his legs managing to slid up tight around his body. ]
Can it stay that way?
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Date: 2023-03-12 03:49 am (UTC)Maybe he felt like this a couple times with Liz in the very beginning, but it had never been this real, this intense. It's an entirely different story, written with different paper and ink and Max wouldn't trade it for all the paperbacks in the world.
He sighs in contentment with Jason wrapped around him and Max's hands smooth down his body gently.] I think so. You can stay tonight? Say you'll stay with me tonight. I don't want to let you out of my arms, my precious love.
[the word love is tacked out without even a thought. It's true. If ever max were to think of it, or worry about it. If ever he were to hold it out in front of a mirror, when Max decides to give his heart be it over a night of loving, or over a shared sandbox, he does it instantly and never takes it back. He may not admit it in the daylight, but for tonight.]
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Date: 2023-03-12 04:05 am (UTC)I can stay tonight, yeah. I wanna stay with you.
[my precious love, Max says, and it lights Jason's insides on fire. no one loves him, and he knows it's just the afterglow, but he doesn't want to make sense of it right now. he just wants to be here in these words, in this moment. he wants to be Max's precious love.]
You're the best thing that's ever happened to me.
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Date: 2023-03-12 04:25 am (UTC)[Those kisses are like the sweetest lullaby, a balm to the wounded soul of a warrior who has been at it so long that he's forgotten what it truly feels like to have someone bound up in the afterglow of everything he can do to them, for them. His own kisses return favor, and languidly deliver hazy promises as they move over damp bare skin.
Max moves to pull the covers up, considering they're both cooling from the exertion of earlier and he doesn't want Jason to get cold.
They'll toss them off later as body heat warms them again and letting go of one another isn't an option in the middle of the night, when they lay loving again after waking.
Except when they do it again, the words will be whispered softly, and everything will be slow and gentle. Max will still want and need Jason every bit as much, and he won't give in, give up, but as one or the other falls asleep, he might very might whisper his own quiet promise of i love you against the lazy curl of Jason's ear, praying he doesn't hear it, because he knows he'll never be able to admit it to himself come light of day. ]
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Date: 2023-03-12 05:44 am (UTC)[ and he really, truly does. he wishes he could, with every fiber of his being, but there's so much more to it than that. he doesn't think of any of that right now though, he just stays lost in this, in Max.
he curls up under the blanket, but mostly under Max, his arms sill sliding up and down his back as he holds him.
they definitely do it again, and maybe once more after that, and each time feels like the most incredible thing. he doesn't hear those words when they're whispered against his ear once he's asleep, but he can feel them, even when morning comes and he has to go. ]
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Date: 2023-03-12 02:54 pm (UTC)no subject
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Date: 2023-03-12 09:04 pm (UTC)It felt like a dream. Clearly it had been a dream. There was no way that this angel had found its way into his life, into his bed and turned his life around completely as Jason had done. Could Max even put into words all the things that last night had meant to him? It wasn't only the sex, it was the trust inherent in Jason's eyes and the way he knew that they were no longer two people, but two souls slowly tying themselves into one.
It made his heart clench with love and fear all in the same breath. Tears formed at the corner of his eyes. Could Max go through this again? Not only that, but could he let Jason leave and go back to where he came from? They had so much to learn about one another and Jason was so young, there was so much that he couldn't understand about all that Max was and had gone through to be where he was. Max began to worry, even before Jason woke.
But then he reached over and touched a cheek blushed from sleep, and knew that he couldn't let any of this go. All the words he'd spoken last night were so very true. He never would let him go. Already in his heart. It would be a struggle. Dear god. He was amazing, and Max felt his body tight and ready as it woke many mornings. Liz would always laugh and walk away. He leaned in close and nuzzled against Jason's neck. He smelled so good.]
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Date: 2023-03-12 09:11 pm (UTC)he wakes completely as Max nuzzles into his neck, letting out a soft, sleepy sound as he opens his eyes, turning his head to nuzzle into Max's hair. fuck, he's sore all over, but he feels so good. ]
Mmm... gmorning.
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Date: 2023-03-12 09:48 pm (UTC)Good morning, my beautiful precious. I take it you slept well?
[He's not particularly super awake, so the kisses are slow and drag over neck and chest as he moves, stretching Jason onto his back.] Thank you for an amazing night. You are wonderful ...
[words are pressed into the skin, written in lazy drawings of Max's tongue around nipple and then navel as he shuffles the covers off. It's obvious he's got something on his mind and won't be stopped. Settling alongside Jason's leg, Max licks over Jason's dick, be it awake or asleep. He pulls the whole thing in his mouth if it's still tiny, or covers the head in kisses if it's awake and proud. ]
Mmmmm, so good.
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Date: 2023-03-12 10:09 pm (UTC)I slept so fucking well. I could feel your arms around me all night.
[his voice is still sleepy, but happy- so happy. he's all smiles as he lays out on his back, his fingers finding Max's skin and slowly smoothing them over his body, wherever he can reach. it's amazing how with a few words, Max can make him feel like he's worth something good. something better than he's ever been worth.]
It was perfect. Everything about last night was perfect. You're incredible.
[Jason says softly as Max moves down his body with his beautiful mouth. god, he loves this softness. it's the perfect way to wake up. his fingers slide up into Max's hair the further down he moves, and oh, hid dick is definitely awake, fully, by the time Max is finishes dragging his tongue up his length. Jason's body arches off the bed just slightly, letting out a soft moan.]
Fuck... your mouth. Your beautiful mouth. Feels so good on me, Max.
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Date: 2023-03-12 11:59 pm (UTC)[It doesn't even bother him that he's carried his language over into the morning. It feels right and curled up warm next to Jason's leg, Max lets all of his worries escape as the musk of last night fills in around him. The smell of their sex reminds him of how it felt to be wrapped up tight in Jason's body, his muscles clinging to Max as they told even the heavens how love was made.
This morning is no difference in its laziness. Max's tongue gently sweeps up and down the length of Jason's dick, swabbing it with saliva, coating the head in lazy open mouthed kisses before he covers the whole thing by taking it into the forward part of his mouth. Even there his tongue plays over the head as he sucks. It runs sideways through the little slit, always anxious for the taste of Jason. That salty bitterness that exclaims his awareness and attraction, his desire for what Max is doing to him.
Pulling off Max takes only a second to sip at some water before he's back, and this time he doesn't hesitate to open up his throat and show Jason all the skills he's learned. He pulls the whole of Jason's cock into his mouth, and then swallows and takes him back into this throat, working him down until Max's lips kiss Jason's body. He pulls back with his lips and tongue curled around the shaft, and navigates his way back down again.
Only once do his eyes ever leave Jason's face when he goes down, only that first swallow. Now that he's got his rhythm, he keeps his eyes on the man he cares about so intently, watching him, enjoying every single bit of his pleasure. He cups Jason's balls, and plays with them gently as he continues, slipping a finger back every now and then to brush along his taint, teasing his lover with as many little sensations as he can this early.]
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Date: 2023-03-13 01:24 pm (UTC)[god, if he could wake this way every morning, he's pretty sure life would be perfect. the mention of love doesn't get lost on him either. he can feel it move through him, warming up his insides, cracking more of that armor he's worked so hard to put up. love. it's just a pet name, he figures. but god it feels good to hear Max say it.
that warmth only deepens when Max keeps at it with that talented mouth of his. it's all so slow and languid, pulling him into this deep, hazy feeling of arousal. he can't take his eyes off of Max. even when the other man pulls off, Jason's eyes follow him, until his head has to fall back from the incredible feeling of Max taking him so deep into his mouth. he lets out a broken moan, fingers curling tight into his hair. he'd be worried that he's pulling too hard, but he remembers how Max said he likes the pain. after last night and all the biting marks Max left, he understands why.]
Oh god... oh fuck, that's...
[his words get cut off by another moan, and then he's back to looking at Max again, wanting to see how it looks with his dick disappearing so deep in Max's mouth. it's fucking beautiful. he's gonna lose his mind with how good this feels.]
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Date: 2023-03-13 03:45 pm (UTC)To that end, Max lifts his head up, and slides a finger in his mouth before he rolls his head back over the throbbing erection in front of him. He can feel the way it jerks as Jason's hips surge towards him and he loves it. Even if Jason were to force himself into Max's throat the man would take every single ounce of abuse so that the younger male found his pleasure.
A slicked digit moves beyond it all, and curves through tightened and sore muscles to press inside Jason. Oh what a feeling to be inside Jason again. They spent the night loving, and even with only a finger it all comes back to him in magnified color relief. He tips his finger towards the spot he's found on more than one occasion and rubs against it. Tapping and moving in and out as his mouth services Jason's cock dutifully.
Max's eyes dare the other, they implore him to find that final end of himself. He watches as every single ounce of beautiful sensation crosses those features, the grimaces and the gasps, the moans and whimpers. Max is in awe of everything he can do as he waits for Jason to orgasm for him. This is the only breakfast he needs and wants this morning. ]
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Date: 2023-03-13 09:12 pm (UTC)Oh god, oh fuck.
[Jason breathes out over and over again, his head swimming with pleasure. Jason thought maybe he'd feel too sore to have Max press into him again, but as that finger pushes into him, he already finds himself craving more. his body pulls the finger in like it's meant to be there, his entire body shivering again when Max hits that spot. he cries out, seeing stars, and he barely has enough time to give a warning.]
Max, I'm gonna cum. Max!
[he breathes out, and then he's spilling into Max's mouth, hips thrusting forward before he can even stop himself.]
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Date: 2023-03-13 09:39 pm (UTC)No one can take Jason away from Max, and there's nothing that would shake this singular force or the tie of his will. The hold his throat has it contracts around the thickness of Jason's dick only increases with each practiced dip of the alien's head. Every deepening thrust of his fingers have Max beginning to moan himself, vibrating around that cock so well placed in his mouth.
Even before Jason warns him, Max knows. He knows from the trembling breath, from the break in Jason's moan and the way his hips begin to thrust erratically at Max's mouth. The alien dives down and then pulls back, sucking hard as ejaculate spills hot and warm down the back of his throat. The warm, thick white substance coats his mouth and he swallows several times working to take every single drop. Only a tiny bit escapes on the corner of his lip, which he lifts his head so that Jason can see him lick it up with his tongue.
Without pausing, Max lowers his head again and licks up every little drop until his lover is clean. Only then does he climb up the young male's body, kissing and sucking over every single mark, reclaiming Jason as his. ] Fuck. You are the sexiest man alive, and I have you all to myself. How can I not be the luckiest man in all the world. In every single planet in this and every galaxy.
[He adds the last, thinking that he's even luckier than any alien that ever walked anywhere as well. Now he cradles Jason to him, and laps his way into the other man's mouth, sharing every deep and dark flavor he just experienced.]
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Date: 2023-03-14 12:37 am (UTC)the way Max swallows him down only adds to how incredibly mind blowing his orgasm feels. he always thought people were making shit up when they said they saw stars, but he feels like he sees an entire universe of them, blurring his vision as he comes, and he can't stop saying Max's name.
when he starts coming down from it he gets to watch Max lick cum from his lips, from his cock, cleaning him up like the best kind of lover. and god, he's thrilled when Max moves back up his body to lean in for a kiss, because Jason closes that gap quickly to press up into it, his tongue searching out his taste mixed with his lovers. ]
Fuck, I'm the lucky one. I'm so lucky...
[he slides his hands up and down Max's back, his words coming out all breathless and blissful.]
You make me feel better than anything and anyone in the world.
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Date: 2023-03-14 02:19 am (UTC)That's the high of the blow job talking, but it sounds wonderful.
[It's very obvious by his grin that he's teasing, and if that wasn't enough Max tilts his head to nip at Jason's nose with affection, bringing it down to a soft, tender kiss]
I meant it when I said that you should wake that way every single morning. You deserve to be loved like this all the time, no matter where you are or who you're with.
[obviously the who is with Max, but he's trying not to narrow the world in one giant leap overnight if that's not what Jason wants, even if it seems like it.]
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Date: 2023-03-14 02:41 am (UTC)they barely know each other. it's isane. mostly because Jason feels like he's already known Max for years. like they've shared so much more than they have.]
Could be the blowjob... it was fucking unbelievable.
[Jason leans into the kiss, tangling their legs up even more before he ducks his head a little
at the sweet words. ]
I want to. I wish I could, with you.
[whatever he deserves, because he certainly doesn't believe it's this. somehow he has it anyway, though. Max says love like it's a real, actual thing, and Jason wonders if he really feels it. it's a lot. ]
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Date: 2023-03-14 02:13 pm (UTC)[Max laughs a little, and hums kissing over Jason's neck and chest randomly, fingering along the marks he made, rediscovering the body he made love to last night in the calm of the morning light.]
My first time giving a blowjob, or with a guy at all was in a lighthouse in the middle of a storm. We were stuck. He was one of my closest friends at the time. There was something in the air... [max shrugged, because it was never easy to explain getting shipped off to another world, and he didn't like to bring it up-- ever.]
I... I bottomed. I always bottomed with him. He was dating this guy that insisted that the only person he ever was on the bottom for was him. I guess that makes sense. The sex was more intense than it ever was with my girlfriend. I had no idea that it could be like that... [His words turn soft and somewhat faraway as he remembers. There's pain in his voice, but also a soft nostalgia. It's obvious he cared for Kyle, but also very obvious that whatever happened hurt him]
I thought I had him for good. He promised me. He was rough, and bit me and showed me what it was like to have someone be possessive, and need me. He did things ... amazing things. Showed me the kind of sex I loved. The kind that I needed, not always, but I needed it to make me feel wanted and loved. Maybe I'm broken that way.
[Max holds jason a little tighter, and leans down to kiss him softly being overly tender to make up for the roughness that he needs at times. ]
You... you've brought me more joy last night than he ever did in the whole time we were together, and I barely know you. We should probably start with the simple things, right? [Max sighs, and kisses Jason again, because he's already so damn addicted it's impossible to do anything else.]
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Date: 2023-03-14 06:46 pm (UTC)[he smiles, all blissed out, his fingers doing their own roam across Max's skin. last night was intense and this morning has been slow and calm in the best kind of way. he loves that it can be both. he's always been the soft, romantic type though. all this roughness with Max is new.
as his fingers trace patterns across Max's skin, he listens. it's a little hard to hear him talk about being with other people, but he wants to know. he's grateful that Max wants to share with him and he gets to see into the older man's world. love, heartache, things that have shaped him in different kinds of ways. Jason has never been open to talking about those things, but maybe since Max can do it, it'll help Jason at least try.]
It sounds like... like all the people you've been with were kind of always with someone else. Or attached to something else. I don't think you're broken, though. Not for liking those things. I think we all just like what we like. Or we like what the person we care about the most likes. It's what he taught you. It's what you know. Maybe... maybe I can teach you other things too.
[it'll likely be the other way around though. it already is. Jason's soft and Max is rough, and yet Jason would take a hundred more bites and marks from Max if it meant the other man could be his. he gets it and he wants it now too.]
I've always hated the idea of possession. I'm the only person I've got. The only person who I can really count on and trust. People've tried to fuck me up before, you know? When you're a street kid, people expect that shit from you sometimes. But... it's different with you. I like it with you. I want it.
[he kisses Max soft and slow, relishing in the tenderness, but after saying all these things out loud- more than he's ever really talked about with anyone- he has to duck his head down against Max's chest.]
We should start with the simple things, yeah.
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Date: 2023-03-14 07:14 pm (UTC)She wasn't what made him alive though. She pushed him through hardships, and they fought-- but she didn't make him want to die burning up in an inferno wrapped only in her. Kyle did, and by the gods, Jason did..
Max needed the mix of rough and soft. He needed someone to challenge him, and let him be romantic with. Someone to bite and hold. Yet, he didn't want to take advantage of Jason who had never felt these things before. He didn't want to be the one who brought possession like this into his life. Maybe he wanted it only because he wanted to be with Max.
The alien sighed a little, and nuzzled against Jason's hair.] Yeah, it's something like that. not exactly, but maybe ... Hey Jason, you know that i'd still like you even if you didn't like the idea of me being possessive of you. If you never wanted me to call you mine, or if you wanted to be your own person it's okay. I don't have to be that way to like you. You're perfect the way you are.
[It hurt a little to say that, but Max would give up a lot for Jason. He'd go back in time, and take away so much of what had happened between them as long as he could hold the younger man here with him if he needed to.]
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Date: 2023-03-14 07:32 pm (UTC)[he starts, but then stops himself. god, he feels so raw with Max. all open and honest with his feelings and emotions. but along with the good ones are the bad. they're every terrible way he feels about himself. Max's words have done a lot to silence those thoughts, but it's different when Max tells him how he feels, opposed to what Jason is.
he doesn't want to talk about himself.]
I wanna be yours. I can still be my own person and be yours. I wanna see your marks on me and know that you're thinking of 'em as much as I am.
[he lifts a hand, running it along the bite Max left above his heart. it's sore, but it's good. they probably all need to be cleaned up soon because they're pretty intense, but Jason isn't really thinking about any of that right now.]
It never felt bad or wrong, or like something I didn't like. Not even for a second. It's just different and new from anything I ever thought I'd like. That's all I'm trying to say.
[he hesitates, letting his hand fall against Max's chest this time, fingers sliding over his heart.]
But also... the guy you were with. He was rough with you and he was possessive of you. He promised you that you had him for good... and then he left. So maybe that's not everything. You said I've brought you more joy than he ever did, even in the short time we've been together. I don't know how, but that feels real important, and maybe we can just have our own thing.
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Date: 2023-03-14 09:35 pm (UTC)He has no idea exactly how locked up and closed Jason actually is to some parts of himself. The harder parts are every bit as important, maybe even more so because in the end those are the ones that Jason will have to know Max loves about him the most. The fucked-up parts. Max has those too, and he's going to dig deep to share them as well.
Time though, it doesn't all have to be on that very first morning.
Right now, what max is doing is trying to let Jason know that what they are doing is different from what Kyle and he did already.
The alien smiles when Jason says that he wants all of this. It's a relief, and without thinking, max blows out a breath he had been holding. ]
I want this with you. I told you all this because you are different. I wanted you to know that already we are different, and what you and I have isn't the same. That's why I told you the story. We do have our own thing.
[Wide eyes blink at Jason, and Max brings his hand to hold Jason's over his heart. He pauses for a second and then speaks softly, but with a quiet determination. ]
Mark me. Mark me as yours, precious. I want a mark of my own to remember you by. Make it deep and put it wherever you want. I'm every bit yours as you are mine. Mark me, please...
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