from : here [It was so hard to be gone for a day, a week will suck. It's weird how life works. One day he's swearing off emotions and feelings because they've brought him so far from where Max has wanted to be and then the next he's hastily erecting walls and drawing lines in this sand because he suddenly finds someone out of the blue he wants to care about again. It's a game of back and forth. Does he, doesn't he. How much will he find himself getting hurt this time around.
He knows that Jason's not out to hurt him, and Max can further help that by not shoving himself all over the gap. Drawing all his lines up. Max smiles. ]
No troubles, you know. We can always talk about things. I don't ever want us to get to a point where we don't talk. It's not easy, but I think it's good, I mean better if we start out trying to talk the best we can with one another.
Visiting the big city sounds fun. I've never been to New York, might as well see the sights.
[Maybe he's a little full of it, since he probably won't ever say what he's really thinking when he's thinking it. Maybe he will. Max is a dreamer, a romantic, a person with emotions, and while he's gonna work on himself, and the rational side of him-- he needs to settle both sides and make them work together-- and once he does, he'll know that it's time to head home. He's pretty sure it's gonna be a while before he can do that.]
[ The thing is, everything about this was supposed to be painless. What's the point of making it become something that is? Jason doesn't want that and he can't imagine Max does either.
He knows it's gotten deeper than that- but they don't have to drown in it. ]
Yeah, you're right. A lot of shit goes wrong when people don't talk- until it's too fucking late and then... you know. I'm just glad we can do it.
[He doesn't want to bring other things into it. He won't.]
I'll come meet you in the mornings and we can see some of those sights together. That cool?
[If Max could see into those thoughts, he'd more than certainly agree to them-- but he's his own little alien mind and it's a strange place in there and so he's going to do his best to ride things out as they come. It's still a new thing for Max, a new type of relationship and world.
This isn't New Mexico, and Jason is a very different type of person than most his friends back home. He likes that, a lot. Well, maybe there's a tad of Michael in there, but he's not sure. There's something in the eyes, a flash, but Max doesn't know. ]
I've not always been good at telling people things. I like to try and do all the big stuff by myself, so this is really good. I'm glad that we talk, really glad. You're right, a lot goes bad when you don't talk. I almost died before i told anyone I was dying.
[he laughs a little at how stupid shit was back then, and then smiles with some relief. ]
You're going to be tired as hell, but I'd love to see the sights with you. There's no one I'd rather walk around the town with. Get some pizza, some dogs, and listen to tour guides drone on.
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Date: 2023-06-23 10:41 pm (UTC)[It was so hard to be gone for a day, a week will suck. It's weird how life works. One day he's swearing off emotions and feelings because they've brought him so far from where Max has wanted to be and then the next he's hastily erecting walls and drawing lines in this sand because he suddenly finds someone out of the blue he wants to care about again. It's a game of back and forth. Does he, doesn't he. How much will he find himself getting hurt this time around.
He knows that Jason's not out to hurt him, and Max can further help that by not shoving himself all over the gap. Drawing all his lines up. Max smiles. ]
No troubles, you know. We can always talk about things. I don't ever want us to get to a point where we don't talk. It's not easy, but I think it's good, I mean better if we start out trying to talk the best we can with one another.
Visiting the big city sounds fun. I've never been to New York, might as well see the sights.
[Maybe he's a little full of it, since he probably won't ever say what he's really thinking when he's thinking it. Maybe he will. Max is a dreamer, a romantic, a person with emotions, and while he's gonna work on himself, and the rational side of him-- he needs to settle both sides and make them work together-- and once he does, he'll know that it's time to head home. He's pretty sure it's gonna be a while before he can do that.]
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Date: 2023-06-23 10:57 pm (UTC)He knows it's gotten deeper than that- but they don't have to drown in it. ]
Yeah, you're right. A lot of shit goes wrong when people don't talk- until it's too fucking late and then... you know. I'm just glad we can do it.
[He doesn't want to bring other things into it. He won't.]
I'll come meet you in the mornings and we can see some of those sights together. That cool?
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Date: 2023-06-24 12:51 pm (UTC)This isn't New Mexico, and Jason is a very different type of person than most his friends back home. He likes that, a lot. Well, maybe there's a tad of Michael in there, but he's not sure. There's something in the eyes, a flash, but Max doesn't know. ]
I've not always been good at telling people things. I like to try and do all the big stuff by myself, so this is really good. I'm glad that we talk, really glad. You're right, a lot goes bad when you don't talk. I almost died before i told anyone I was dying.
[he laughs a little at how stupid shit was back then, and then smiles with some relief. ]
You're going to be tired as hell, but I'd love to see the sights with you. There's no one I'd rather walk around the town with. Get some pizza, some dogs, and listen to tour guides drone on.